Tongue

David used his waiting time to give me and Michael some chance for hands-on exercises, before I started exploring the difference in perception of movement when I 'did' my directions in contrast to just think them. I wonder whether it helps the process to communicate the increase in precision of proprioception exactly, something to ask a teacher.

We made loud noises again, after exploring the relation between breathing and the movement of the tailbone. Our body moves a lot in any given moment, which makes integrating the relevant information into a connected image a challenging task.

I started the performance session off, and felt significantly less nervous when doing so. I went smoothly through the first half, and then became self-conscious again, or rather lost my intention a bit. Penny reminded me of the bad habit to do more than needed with my tongue. Allowing it to stay in the front of my mouth stopped me from swallowing tunes at the end of a phrase, and certainly increased my fun while doing it.

Inhibition and direction

I can use my foot again, but acquired already some interesting pattern of changed use in the meantime. With David I detected a bit of asymmetry, probably due to the shift of weight I habituated. Ferry helped me releasing my hip joints a lot, and my proprioception gets more 3 (4?) -dimensional. I don't notice only things close to my skin, but get more inside.

The communication session dealt with anger management, interesting yet in my point of view kind of off topic. I inhibited my averse reaction as good as I could, and focused more on observing the group interactions.

Student meeting

I walked over my heels in my turn with Libby, and I just needed to convince me that I can do so. I guess I can figure out heaps of avoidance pattern once I can use my left foot in normal ways.

We did a lot of hands on work in the group with David, and although it takes still some effort to stay in myself, I like it more and more. As long as I don't care whether I can 'listen' with my hands, I can use the stimulus of another body to maintain my directions.

The student meeting went quite okay, just in 'Alexander time'. However, Michael and I managed to put our criticism about Razia C&C sessions forward. I realise more and more how much I expected General Semantics as our communication module.

We had more hands-on with Jenny, and again I noticed the importance of my own use when using my hands. We played with taking an arm and a shoulder, and it helped a lot toi experience this on the table and doing yourself.

Handicapped

During the half turn with David I noticed some elements of my old pattern of bending myself out of a chair. I haven't managed to visualise bodily pattern in myself, but my understanding of the interacting parts grows daily.

The table turn with Jane made me aware of pulling in and out of my shoulder and hip joint. I have to fight the temptation to complain about pain and my reaction to it - I did not act very clever and have to pay the prize now.

Doing yoga felt okay, taking it slow and focusing on the whole body made it a worthwhile affair, staying with the means whereby and not the end.

Singing

I worked on using my injured foot better with Penny, but I still don't feel comfortable standing for longer times. I want to play a bit with Penny's idea about the 'neutral position' for the tongue, as I noticed that I do a lot with it without being aware of it.

I see more and more the use of our voice warm-ups, it's a good chance to create feedback through sound. Kaz reminded me of the difference between speaking and singing, I still move my head (in a down way) while talking.

Communication

I had a turn with Libby, like yesterday, this time a table turn. I managed to direct myself away from my leg while Libby held it, an amazing sensation. I spend most time until the group work started with CJ.

The communication session consisted of some basic ideas about positive thinking, and I had to inhibit a great deal to stay happy. However, I will see whether I will gain something from the goal settting exercise.

I seem to make progress on different fronts. I had my turn with Carol, and she managed to give some surprising new ways of sitting down. Although I felt quite shortened and stiff, I preserved my use relatively well (while doing nothing :)

Carol and David shared their experiences from the teacher congress in Lugano, so I didn't need to go through Yoga with an injured foot. We used our hands instead in the group work, and I enjoyed working with Robert and Jen. We played with sensing the difference between helping, working against, collapsing and availability.